Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Setting My Mind Free

So, I am driving in the car tonight and my hubby and I got into deep conversation, we had a long drive and it was a perfect setting. We started talking about what makes us happy and I'm not going to go into all of our details but something happened and what I thought would make me happy is NOT what makes me happy. I'm talking about my weight. I truly have been thinking if I could just buckle down and get this weight off, I would be so happy. My opinion changed in moments of this conversation.

So we talked and I realized what makes me happy is my family and my art and talents, volunteering and traveling the world. I knew this but not to the level that I thought. I thought the weight thing was more important an issue for me. Recently, I have created a MySpace page and I have come across friends from high school. They are giving me unbelievable compliments..."You look incredible" one said..." You are gorgeous" another said. I went back to my photos and I looked at me and I thought, I beg to differ...I'm fatter and older! Then I looked again...I have a beautiful face. I may have weight on but I am beautiful and my family is beautiful.

I also thought of how I recently ran into a friend the same age that I hadn't seen in a year or so and she lost 30 pounds. I don't want to be mean but she aged 10 years. She weighed maybe 150 pounds before and now is 120 pounds and the wrinkles came out terrible. I don't want that. I want to be more healthy, yes, but I AM healthy now. I thought of how last year I went to Hersheypark and played the guess my age game...The girl said 26 and I was 36. I never felt so confident and proud then I did at that moment.

So, I am freeing my mind of my weight issues, I'm concentrating on what makes me feel beautiful and what I have that is beautiful, even if it is only a pretty face and skinny legs! hahahaha

My children are my mirror images of my happiness...what makes me happy is seeing my son excel so much and know that he is 4 with a kindergardner's brain and know that I am working so hard at homeschooling to help him even more. What makes me happy is teaching my daughter and watching her blossom into such a sweet spirit. She is only 19 months old and sitting on her potty already! Yea for Vanessa!!! Those little things give me so much happiness.

I've been making my own money and saving for a camera and I'm so close to achieving that goal and I can do my photography again, that makes me so happy. I gave forks and spoons that I decorate to Hayden's teachers, they didn't know I made them. They thought I bought them and as soon as they found out, they want to place orders to give as gifts! I'm ecstatic about that!!!! I do it as a hobby and it could make me money...woohoo!

I'm going to sing on Sunday, that makes me happy. I have a meeting coming up for volunteering with the Art League and I am so excited to see what all I can do. That makes me happy. It's not that I am saying, Oh, I will just stay fat...I just need to get rid of any thoughts about it at all because it puts negativity in me and makes me look at me from the outside and that is not what I want to teach my kids. I love food, I have pretty much gone back to no meat, I eat more vegetables than anything besides chocolate...hehehe. I make sure my kids eat great, they don't drink pop, they don't eat candy unless it is a special treat. I am doing what makes me happy and living a full, healthy life and having a ton of fun along with it.

I kept trying to figure out time to exercise...I don't want to figure out time to exercise...I want to stay so busy with my family and I am already so busy with extra-curricular activities and that is what I enjoy. I just don't want to worry about it anymore, I want to keep my youthful beauty from the inside out.

In ending, my conversation with my hubby opened a new door for me...I am throwing away the weight issues completely and concentrating on just making myself happy with the things that make me happy. That's all I need, truly. Friends, family, love, respect and my spirit to be free.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Hayden my hero!

I am watching my son blossom into a sweet, loving boy. Hayden has some great progressions, his speech is becoming clearer everyday. Those words with R's aren't giving him such a hard time anymore! His love for his sister is remarkable. We were in Pennsylvania and my cousin was playing with Vanessa, well she took her and set her inside her car, and they were just playing, there was a lot of people outside. Hayden came flying into my dad's house and ran to my dad and said "Papa, she is taking my sister!!!" He was crying and frantic. The most precious thing about it was he was REALLY, DEEPLY concerned and his love shown through so sweetly.

We explained that Maria ( Maria is 18) was just playing with her and she is okay and not going anywhere. He was relieved and you could see the weight come off his shoulders. I was amazed at his love for his sister and how quickly he responded to something he thought was wrong. This truly is a gift from GOD, a love so grand between siblings. So, we came back from Pa and Hayden had his last swimming lesson and got his certificate. He missed moving to level 2 by one thing, his instructor said he is so close, he just has to be able to go underwater. Which, he has done so several times but he won't every time and he has to, in order to move on.

We are still so proud of him and he has accomplished many things with swimming, he has a checklist that explains all that he has met and some of them are front float, back float, how to recognize a swimmer in distress, roll over from front to back and back to front, alternating arm action and leg action and exhaling underwater through mouth and nose (blow bubbles). He can do the doggy paddle so good, (that's what I call it). They put a noodle around him and off he goes swimming the whole length of the pool. He also can jump off the diving board which is fantastic but he won't do it every time and that is okay for now.

He is going to start a two week, everyday swim lesson starting in June and his instructor said we will really see a progression then and he may be able to move to level 2 in Fall. I'm so proud of him, either way, he is coming along just fine. Now, for school, he got two really cute homemade books yesterday with everything he can do and little projects he has done. Well, she had a checklist of everything he can do and here is some: He can recognize his name and most of the letters. H, Y, E, N. When she says that, she is referring to his writing his name and he does write the A and D but they aren't clear enough for his teacher to say he can write his whole name. But to me, he can!...hehehe He can identify 10 colors, all shapes and can count to 12, although he counts higher for me. Who knows what mood he is in when she asks him to do it....hehehe.

He is one of those kids that can do things but when you ask him, if he doesn't feel like it, he won't do it and again, that is okay for now, he is only 4. I think he is doing amazing. He can cut beautifully with scissors and can follow lines and shapes or pictures when cutting really well. He also can draw very well but his most impressive artistic ability is he can paint like no other child I've seen. He is awesome and I'm so proud!! His teacher is also very impressed with how he can name any dinosaur, tell her what kind of food it eats and where it would live. That is incredible!

The other day, he impressed his father and I so much, he gets animal magazines and they are informative and fun. Well, he grabbed one and wanted his dad to read to him and when it came to a two page spread about penguins, Hayden started naming all the different kinds like "Macaroni Penguin". I never even heard of a Macaroni penguin!! The craziest thing is, he was correct! Brian said to him, "How did you know that was a Macaroni Penguin?" He just looked at us. Now, mind you, I had read to him this magazine a longggggggg time ago and he remembered the different names of the penguins. I didn't even remember.

I think it is exciting to see what his interests are now too. He LOVES bugs and I watched him pick up a catepillar off the sidewalk and put it in the grass and he said to it "There you go" like you are safe now little buddy. It was soooo cute! He loves fishing and digging for worms and likes camping in a tent and making smores from a campfire. He loves animals and again can name any and all. He has an encyclopedia of animals and can tell me what all of them are. His dad built a t-ball stand and he LOVES playing baseball now and runs to the bases as we try to catch him. He giggles and squeals in delight! He loves golf and soccer and sitting on his dad's lap and playing piano. He has a love for flowers and anything pretty. He will say "Mom, this is beautiful" as he walks up to a flower or scenic area.

So, my Hayden is my hero and I am so thankful for this amazing kid in my life. He gives me so much joy, not just in his talents or smarts but just his silly self. He is growing so fast and I just breathe in every second of time with him. I watch and learn from him and he is remarkable. I am truly in awe of this little beautiful being.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Sickness Arrives Again

Now, I am undoubtedly ready for summer...good ole' sicknesses have come again. I have a runny nose, sinus congestion, headache problem...Hayden has a cough and his pink eye is gone but he still has drops put in until Friday. Vanessa has pink eye and an ear infection along with a nasty cough. Brian is our only healthy nut around here....can you say uuugghh, pleaseeeeeeee come summer! What do you do?

I also have not been entirely thrilled with our weather, the sun is shining but it is cold still. We were out today for not even an hour and Hayden said he was cold, of course, he fell asleep on the couch so he could have just been tired too. I'm hanging in there though, I could use some more sleep but I'll catch up eventually.

On to peachier subjects...smiling...I made that word up...hehehe...Peachier...sounds good to me...The fundraiser for Andre Bosse went fantastic, we are donating $1600 to the center! WooHoo!!! I'm so proud and feel very honored to have been a part of this success. The article in the paper about me was nice and I have been getting comments everywhere I go, which is a little weird but fun! I guess there may be another article after this is said and done telling how much was given and that will be cool.

In the end, I made some wonderful new friends, the ladies I worked with are just gems and I will always count my blessings for meeting them and having them in my life now. Today, I am working on a meal for a friend who just had a baby, I'm making cupcakes, meatloaf, potatoes and salad. I just did a meal for another friend in April and I am doing one in June and one in July. I absolutely love doing this kind of thing. If I could, I would make a business out of it.

So, even though sickness has wormed it's way into our lives again, I'm still able to do my volunteer work, which makes me so incredibly happy. It made me feel so good to explain to Hayden what the meal was all about and he said to me "Mom, they need that food to help them." He got it and understood.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

I'm going to be in the newspaper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, the Ludington Daily News called last night and they received a press release on me and thought I would be a good candidate for on their FRONT PAGE!! I was so nervous as the reporter interviewed me and later last night I jotted down all the key questions she asked me and wrote what I was trying to say (because I thought I did terrible...hehehe)
So, I had to go there this morning for my picture to be taken and I gave the reporter my written down thoughts, she said I did just fine but if anyone knows me, I was a ball of nerves so I had to make sure I said the right things...hehehe....I actually am triple excited about all of this and feel so honored!! Okay, breathe Kristen, breathe....ahhhhhhhhhh.

As far as other things going on, Vanessa was in yesterday's paper, a little blurry vision...hehhee...We went to a mother daughter banquet and there was a fashion show and a photographer snapped a photo of one of the gals in the show and Vanessa is in the background...hehehe. Too funny! I cut it out to put in her journal. I also have been working on taking photos of her to enter to a agency in Grand Rapids for modeling. I think I have the five pics needed, now we will see if she gets any calls.

Tomorrow, we go to see and pick out our baby bunny, he/she isn't ready to actually come home with us but we get to go and see the babies. I haven't told Hayden yet because he will flip out! He will ask me every minute when we are going so I thought I would just take him and surprise him. Not much else new, hubby has been busy busy with all his extra curricular activities and so have the kids and I.

Hayden is going to take a two week every day swimming course in June, this will really push him to the next level which I am excited about. Vanessa is starting a swim lesson in June as well. Hayden had lessons last night and he jumped off the diving board again, I was so proud and he is swimming underwater now and went under about 6 times.
My cooking class was awesome!! I am taking another on the 14th, this time it is brunch recipes. The cool thing about the pasta class is now I can make homemade pasta and give it as gifts! I already can see it, everyone is getting homemade pasta for Christmas!...hehehe
I found out the Sandcastles children's museum here in Ludington is opening from June-August and I can pay $50 and the kids can go everyday if they want, all summer, they have soooooo many activities, I am beyond excited about this. They do crafts and have guests come and puppet shows etc... The kids will absolutely go crazy there. Now, if the weather would stay like yesterday...sighs...today is dark, gloomy and rainy...Guess it's an indoor day but I have special things planned!

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Life....

UGGHH! I'm so sick of the cold weather!!! I took the kids for a walk yesterday and we were only out for a half hour and they were freezing, mind you it was 39 degrees. I got spoiled with our week of summer and now these last two days it's freezing again. I actually had potato soup for lunch...The thermometer this morning is only at 39 again...sighs...I think I need to work on my patience...hehehe. Florida comes to my mind frequently....smiling.

Two good things happened though in the last couple days, Hayden went to his first dentist appointment and did AWESOME! I was so impressed!! Then last night at swimming, he jumped off the diving board a few times with no problem! Yea!!! I started video taping him at his lessons. I can't wait to show him when he's 18 how cute and goofy he is! I started thinking in all my craziness and fun with the kids, I had to get back into video taping them. There is just some cherished moments that our digital camera can't capture.

Tonight I am going to a cooking class with a local chef to learn 4 pasta recipes and to make pasta fom scratch, I cannot wait!!! We really have been eliminating meat in our meals and this will give me some more ideas! Even my husband lately, is not wanting meat...Could my plan be working to switch us all to little/or no meat?...smiling big!!! HAHAHAHA If only I didn't like a steak once in awhile...that is why I say just a little meat. But for me, I am going all raw and fresh, except for pasta and a very small amount of meat, maybe once a week for now. I had forgotten how much energy pasta gives me so it has been coming back in my life like an old friend. We also make our sauces very much like in Italy, light and refreshing.

In 3 weeks, we are getting a baby bunny!...AWWWW!! Our friend's rabbit had babies and asked if we wanted one and Hayden asked his dad and dad said yes. They stay outside all year she said in a cage with a shelter box. Hayden, of course, can't wait to feed it carrots but most of it's diet will be pellets. This will be a good thing to add into homeschooling. How to raise a baby bunny and care for it.

I am getting pampered coming up, first I get my hair highlighted tomorrow night, then next week I have a massage appointment and pedicure appointment. Then, Brian has something planned for our anniversary but I have no idea what it is. Lastly, at the end of May we go to Pennsylvania for some fun! We will be swimming and going to Hersheypark...I'm so excited and I have lunch dates with friends!! May is going to be a good month. I also have my HUGE fundraiser for Andre Bosse. I believe we will be in the local news or newspaper for it. Recognition is a good thing!

So, life is good...I am slacking in the energy department these last two days. I think it is my allergies again and my monthly "friend" coming. Yea for that!...hehehe Oh well, fill me with that wonderful pasta tonight and I will be flying again!

Monday, April 28, 2008

Helping Me From the Inside Out

It has been awhile since I have been on my blog and mostly it is because I have been very busy with the kids. I'm really enjoying the nice weather and riding bikes with Hayden. Now, of course, the weather has changed and it is freezing outside again so we have done some indoor activities these last few days. I've also been on a mission doing spring cleaning, my house is getting cleaned and organized room by room. I finally finished our bedroom last night and it looks fantastic!

We will have this house on the market by June. We are determined to have it ready. I'm so anxious to get my garden started and Hayden will have his own this year, he has made plans already for making salsa to give to the neighbors. I started some seeds but I really can't wait to get some plants. So, house stuff and kid stuff has kept me so busy sometimes my head is spinning and I decided I needed to work on some things with me. I am starting a book study called Scale Down and it comes with a workbook, this will be my summer project for myself.

I also am looking into starting a chapter in my area from a group called MothersandMore. I'm so anxious to get the info and see if it is something I can get off the ground. I also start singing at church on May 11th. We had some setbacks getting me started but now its a go. Lastly, I am looking for a bible study group, I know of a couple and I really want to join one. Church has really become a big focal point in our lives and we are starting to get very involved so I'm excited about that. My hubby joined one that started today. He's looking forward to going every Monday.

I also will be starting my volunteer work very soon, I sent my application into the art league and after volunteering 8 times, I will become a member. I also talked and met the owners of Red Door Gallery here in our hometown and they take any artwork and display it for sale...I am SOOO EXCITED!!!!!!! I have some pieces I would love to sell and have on display. They will be also contacting me when they have a ceramics class, which I have always wanted to learn.

I'm also anxious to get Hayden doing his summer reading program, I have already started homeschooling him and will do so all summer. He's enjoying it and I have made it very classroom-like so we get a lot done. I only spend an hour with him because it is a full hour of school work and it isn't play time. I am going to incorporate a second language while I'm at it and he will hopefully learn some French and I will too....hehehe.

So, in closing, I am having a ton of fun with the kids, I am so busy that I stopped thinking about my weight. I don't have time to exercise but I am getting lots of exercise if that makes sense. Our friend is opening her inground pool this year and I can go at anytime so that should be an added benefit all summer....smiling. With all the fun and getting the house ready for selling, I'm focusing on me on the inside, my spirituality, my talents and my mind and it is reshaping my life and my attitude. It's going to be a great summer...but if you can't get a hold of me, you know what all I am doing.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Escaping exercise and other juicy stories...

HAHAHAHA!!! Not really, I just LOVE that title!! Well, I have escaped exercise because I'm having so much fun and getting plenty with my kids! I bought Hayden a bike and Vanessa can't get enough of being outside so we have been outside ALOT...Which makes for me getting exercise without trying...smiling.

The weather has been perfect and besides being outside, we are quite busy with other things as well. I am getting super busy with Tastefully Simple, I just had a party and I have 5 more within the next 4 weeks...It's crazy! (All this money rolling in is great for saving for my camera )Along with that, MOPS and church have me busy.

We attended a new church today and at first I wasn't sure about it but I am feeling the calling to be there. Brian ran into a bunch of clients, Hayden's best friends go there and they have Sunday school, which is important to me. Along with that, Brian got offered to play in a christian rock band there and he would perform almost every sunday. The pastors were unbelievably nice and today was communion. I have been praying and asking God to send me an answer and today I felt it. I was torn between two churches. I think this church has more for the kids and the music just got switched over so Brian would be starting with a brand new band not actually jumping into one already formed and that would be great.

So, why am I typing in the middle of the day? I am cleaning my house because of all my busy busy days and I let it go far too long. There was an inch of dust and it looked like we had mice running through the house with all the crumbs on the kitchen floor...yuk!!! I just mopped the floors and they are drying so I got on to my blog. I went and cleaned my van also, vacuumed and washed it, it looks ten times better also. I keep cleaning and coming back and writing more.

Okay, it's going on 4:30 now, it is time to get ready for dinner and guess what? I am ordering in Chinese!! hehehe There goes any exercise I have gotten!