Well, we didn't win anything at our singing competition and it really sucked but the good news is some of my stage fright has gone away and that is most important. The way the competition was done didn't work very well and needless to say, out of 180 people, at least 50 were kids and they voted for all the comedy acts and other kids performing so some of the winners were not exactly "real talent" but it is okay.
The broker who came up with the whole idea and set everything up was, to put it mildly, very upset about the votes...He apologized to me many times and thanked me for performing. We had just about everyone coming up to us saying they thought for sure we were going to win and of course, that made me more sad and I had to cry but I think I cried, not because we lost so much but because it took every nerve of mine to get up on the stage so it was a personal disappointment for me.
I believe they are doing another talent show in the future and doing it differently...It would have been better had they had categories or something because the top 3 prizes were very serious prizes. Other than that disappointment, we had a great time on Mackinac Island. Brian won some awards, I was so proud of him and we really had a great relaxing time. We walked miles and miles and rode bikes around the whole island which was 8 miles so I definately got lots of exercise and I really did not eat much so that was cool. We also met a wonderful young couple who are new with Edward Jones. They really were so much fun to hang out with.
Hopefully I can keep up with the exercise and eating less, all I know is I have been so hot these last two days and unfortunately that makes me nothing but tired...but we have some concerts coming up and that should be a great time, we also have a playdate on thursday and I get a facial on saturday...didn't I say life is still good! Smiling!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Proud Mama!!!
He did it! Hayden Lee passed his Karate test and got a stripe on his belt!! Woo Hoo!! He also got a certificate and his picture taken and it's going to be in the newspaper...I was and still am, the very proud mom...I had tears in my eyes watching him, he did the best out of all the Little Dragons, not to brag, seriously he did. We captured it all on video tape. They all did super and what I mean about him doing the best, is all his moves were just about perfect and he was the only one who had his hands up at his cheeks during kicks..Little things like that...saying "yes, maam" to his instructor and oh I could go on and on but I am just so darn proud of him!
Today I also had a spa day that my husband had bought for me and that was absolute heaven! The massage therapist was so good I was snoring!!....hehehe...She was fantastic...Then I had a pedicure and manicure and that was very nice also, my feet were in terrible shape because I run around barefoot constantly. I get my facial in a few weeks, I set that aside for another day. Afterwards we went to Muskegon and I found a necklace to go with my pretty dress for our trip to Mackinac Island. I have to say a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders because I was really stressing out about a bunch of things, but one was finding a necklace...
It started out as one of those things I wasn't worried about but now we are 4 days away from leaving so the stress had built up. Well, this has to be brief because today was so busy and I haven't finished getting my hubby's Father's Day gifts ready. He's going to be sooo surprised! I can't wait! He deserves more, he is a fantastic person, husband and father...I'm so lucky in love!
Today I also had a spa day that my husband had bought for me and that was absolute heaven! The massage therapist was so good I was snoring!!....hehehe...She was fantastic...Then I had a pedicure and manicure and that was very nice also, my feet were in terrible shape because I run around barefoot constantly. I get my facial in a few weeks, I set that aside for another day. Afterwards we went to Muskegon and I found a necklace to go with my pretty dress for our trip to Mackinac Island. I have to say a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders because I was really stressing out about a bunch of things, but one was finding a necklace...
It started out as one of those things I wasn't worried about but now we are 4 days away from leaving so the stress had built up. Well, this has to be brief because today was so busy and I haven't finished getting my hubby's Father's Day gifts ready. He's going to be sooo surprised! I can't wait! He deserves more, he is a fantastic person, husband and father...I'm so lucky in love!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Bummed and happy at the same time...
I am sad and relieved at the same time today...I had my last kickboxing class and I am so bummed out that I have to stop, but our next 6 weeks are crazy busy...Hayden had to also stop karate for right now. He is still having his first test on Saturday and that will get him his first stripe on his belt so I am so excited for that. If we had signed up again, we would have each missed 6 classes in a row right off the bat and so I had to make the difficult decision to stop for now.
I'm relieved in the sense that it is one thing off my shoulders...We have so many fun things coming up and it would have just been a weight on my shoulders knowing we would have to be at a certain place at a certain time and wondering if we could make class or not...Now I feel we can just really enjoy the rest of summer. We are both starting back August 1st so it isn't that bad of a break because I definitely want both of us to continue our classes.
I also had to talk to Hayden's teacher about maybe waiting until he is older to get him started again because I have to take Vanessa and it is a parent participation class and now that she isn't in her car seat to be carried, it makes it so I can't participate. So his instructor told me she was thinking of switching it anyways to a drop off class and we tried it today and he did awesome...
They reviewed for their test on Saturday and she said he did all his moves perfect. Plus, he was the best behaved with me not there. Not that he was bad but between every exercise he wanted to come and hug me and it was distracting when he is in a disciplined environment.
So, in August it will switch to dropping him off and that will be a lot easier with Vanessa...I am also a little bummed about our summer flying by...just yesterday I was outside all day with the kids, Vanessa was in her pool and Hayden was in his and we had so much fun and it was one of my best days so far this summer.
In two weeks it will be July and in that two weeks, we have a lot of stuff going on and also the 4 weeks following so it bums me that I may not have many of those days of lounging in the yard with the kids. We all were laying on a blanket later on in the evening, just playing and tickling each other and Vanessa and Hayden were laughing so much. What a joy it was, I could have stayed there forever.
On a good note, the other students at kickboxing said they will miss me and can't wait until I come back, which is so cool because we all have become pretty close and spend time before and after class getting to know each other. My other joy is, early morning, Vanessa woke up crying, so instead of trying to soothe her, I brought her to bed with me...
She was out within seconds nestled against me and slept like that for a long time afterward. Hayden woke up, came in our room and crawled in bed and all three of us slept a little longer but I was snuggled with them just like on the blanket and again, I didn't want to get up...smiling with tears.
I'm relieved in the sense that it is one thing off my shoulders...We have so many fun things coming up and it would have just been a weight on my shoulders knowing we would have to be at a certain place at a certain time and wondering if we could make class or not...Now I feel we can just really enjoy the rest of summer. We are both starting back August 1st so it isn't that bad of a break because I definitely want both of us to continue our classes.
I also had to talk to Hayden's teacher about maybe waiting until he is older to get him started again because I have to take Vanessa and it is a parent participation class and now that she isn't in her car seat to be carried, it makes it so I can't participate. So his instructor told me she was thinking of switching it anyways to a drop off class and we tried it today and he did awesome...
They reviewed for their test on Saturday and she said he did all his moves perfect. Plus, he was the best behaved with me not there. Not that he was bad but between every exercise he wanted to come and hug me and it was distracting when he is in a disciplined environment.
So, in August it will switch to dropping him off and that will be a lot easier with Vanessa...I am also a little bummed about our summer flying by...just yesterday I was outside all day with the kids, Vanessa was in her pool and Hayden was in his and we had so much fun and it was one of my best days so far this summer.
In two weeks it will be July and in that two weeks, we have a lot of stuff going on and also the 4 weeks following so it bums me that I may not have many of those days of lounging in the yard with the kids. We all were laying on a blanket later on in the evening, just playing and tickling each other and Vanessa and Hayden were laughing so much. What a joy it was, I could have stayed there forever.
On a good note, the other students at kickboxing said they will miss me and can't wait until I come back, which is so cool because we all have become pretty close and spend time before and after class getting to know each other. My other joy is, early morning, Vanessa woke up crying, so instead of trying to soothe her, I brought her to bed with me...
She was out within seconds nestled against me and slept like that for a long time afterward. Hayden woke up, came in our room and crawled in bed and all three of us slept a little longer but I was snuggled with them just like on the blanket and again, I didn't want to get up...smiling with tears.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Monthly friend is soon visiting
Yes, my lovely monthly visitor is coming soon because I am eating the whole house down! Not that there is much I can do about it but it reminds me of when I was pregnant and craved just ANYTHING...well, first salt then chocolate...Gotta have the whole salt/sugar duo...smiling...Speaking of which, I ordered, awhile ago, a bucket of popcorn from a boy selling goodies for school...It finally came and sat on our counter for sometime until finally I decided to check it out...BIG MISTAKE!!!...
First of all, it is called Chicago Style Gourmet Popcorn...It's a blend of buttery caramel corn and cheddar cheese popcorn...YES, the ultimate dish for a woman about to get her "visitor"...I never should have opened it because not only do I dig in a little each and every day but so does my husband and I have a little more then and so does my son and I have a little more then...It's a nightmare...a darn good nightmare but I'm on this whole Chicago Style popcorn kick now...
I also hate that every time I walk into the kitchen, I open the refrigerator...I don't even know what I am looking for, just anything I can sink my teeth into...It's so ridiculously funny! So, we have this big summer regional meeting on Mackinaw Island and I want to look good for it so you would think the week before leaving I would eat just salads and light food but instead it's that whole week before a visitor comes where I just want to swallow the refrigerator plus some....sighs...Hopefully my beautiful new dress still fits!...hehehe
Then tonight I went and got my hair highlighted...WOW!!!...It really turned out quite blonde...yikes!!....It took some getting used to and probably just because I haven't done highlighting in over a year but the more I look at it, the more I like it and the more it looks caramel blonde...My friend stopped by and she loved it so I guess that is one good thing...My husband wasn't sure at first (kind of like me) but now he loves it...He thought the hairdresser did it wrong because the bottom is darker but I had her do it that way and then he was like "OHHHHH, I love it!"
Well, I think I have to try to add some more major exercise to make up for all that I am inhaling in food....sighs...as I eat Toasty peanut butter crackers...you know what is next...CHOCOLATE!
First of all, it is called Chicago Style Gourmet Popcorn...It's a blend of buttery caramel corn and cheddar cheese popcorn...YES, the ultimate dish for a woman about to get her "visitor"...I never should have opened it because not only do I dig in a little each and every day but so does my husband and I have a little more then and so does my son and I have a little more then...It's a nightmare...a darn good nightmare but I'm on this whole Chicago Style popcorn kick now...
I also hate that every time I walk into the kitchen, I open the refrigerator...I don't even know what I am looking for, just anything I can sink my teeth into...It's so ridiculously funny! So, we have this big summer regional meeting on Mackinaw Island and I want to look good for it so you would think the week before leaving I would eat just salads and light food but instead it's that whole week before a visitor comes where I just want to swallow the refrigerator plus some....sighs...Hopefully my beautiful new dress still fits!...hehehe
Then tonight I went and got my hair highlighted...WOW!!!...It really turned out quite blonde...yikes!!....It took some getting used to and probably just because I haven't done highlighting in over a year but the more I look at it, the more I like it and the more it looks caramel blonde...My friend stopped by and she loved it so I guess that is one good thing...My husband wasn't sure at first (kind of like me) but now he loves it...He thought the hairdresser did it wrong because the bottom is darker but I had her do it that way and then he was like "OHHHHH, I love it!"
Well, I think I have to try to add some more major exercise to make up for all that I am inhaling in food....sighs...as I eat Toasty peanut butter crackers...you know what is next...CHOCOLATE!
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Kickboxing Rocks!!
Thursday was unbelievable!! Kickboxing class was absolutely the hardest ever!! She made us do double and triple time on most things because we started the class 6 minutes late. Then the Ludington Daily News was there doing an article on our class and an intern did the class with us and documented our comments and her photographer snapped photos of us during the entire class. So, that ended up being really interesting.
Needless to say, the last 20 minutes of class are ab work and she really kicked our butts! The intern said she didn't know what to expect but this class is really hard. She took a yoga class in town and liked it so much she signed up. I'm not sure she is signing up for kickboxing. We were all sweating out of pores we didn't know we could sweat out of...hehehe...It was crazy, insane, hot as heck and felt darn good afterwards so I guess that is all that mattered.
I had a puddle, literally a puddle, of sweat between my breasts, the sweat was burning my eyes, I had to stop the flow of sweat...(yes I mean flow!!) my arms were bright red, everything burned like fire, my hair was so wet it looked like I took a shower...I came home, my hubby took one look at me and was like, holy cow!!!...He said, WOW, you look exhausted!...I showed him some of the moves we had to do and he couldn't believe it...
One of the most exhausting parts was we had to punch and kick our bag for 3 minutes straight as fast as we could, using the techniques we have learned and you have to constantly move around the bag and if we stopped or slowed down, she would tack on more time to the whole class..It's sounds like 3 minutes isn't long but let me tell you, it is hard as hell, but I did it... barely...The good news is it felt like I had burned 3000 calories!...hehehe...I wish, but I probably burned away everything I had eaten that day and more...Not just from that one exercise, but from the whole hour of class..
To sum it up, I did a kickboxing match literally with a 150 pound bag and beat the crap out of it!...smiling big! Yea for me!!!...Kickboxing rocks!!!
Needless to say, the last 20 minutes of class are ab work and she really kicked our butts! The intern said she didn't know what to expect but this class is really hard. She took a yoga class in town and liked it so much she signed up. I'm not sure she is signing up for kickboxing. We were all sweating out of pores we didn't know we could sweat out of...hehehe...It was crazy, insane, hot as heck and felt darn good afterwards so I guess that is all that mattered.
I had a puddle, literally a puddle, of sweat between my breasts, the sweat was burning my eyes, I had to stop the flow of sweat...(yes I mean flow!!) my arms were bright red, everything burned like fire, my hair was so wet it looked like I took a shower...I came home, my hubby took one look at me and was like, holy cow!!!...He said, WOW, you look exhausted!...I showed him some of the moves we had to do and he couldn't believe it...
One of the most exhausting parts was we had to punch and kick our bag for 3 minutes straight as fast as we could, using the techniques we have learned and you have to constantly move around the bag and if we stopped or slowed down, she would tack on more time to the whole class..It's sounds like 3 minutes isn't long but let me tell you, it is hard as hell, but I did it... barely...The good news is it felt like I had burned 3000 calories!...hehehe...I wish, but I probably burned away everything I had eaten that day and more...Not just from that one exercise, but from the whole hour of class..
To sum it up, I did a kickboxing match literally with a 150 pound bag and beat the crap out of it!...smiling big! Yea for me!!!...Kickboxing rocks!!!
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Wednesday is hump day
"Today is hump day", is what my husband said to me this morning...hehehe..I never heard of it until I came to Michigan I think it is the funniest thing calling Wednesday hump day because, your halfway through the week and on your way to the weekend. Of course, in his mind, he was thinking other thoughts as he said it with a devilish smile. Gotta love him!
We have been practicing singing for a competition we have coming up in about two weeks and I have been trying to build my confidence more. I think I sing pretty good, it's just I have terrible stage fright so then I mess up or shake and it sounds bad. I keep visualizing a huge crowd in front of me because, to be honest it will be a huge crowd...Makes me slightly sick to my stomach. So, I'm trying to really be positive and hold my head high and act like I am this great thing and I sit at the end of practicing thinking the very opposite...I have two weeks to really perfect this and not take it so seriously. I mean this will be in front of brokers and their wives, half of which probably have no musical talent so we will sound like Gods to them...laughing!
I also pray everyday to make this fear go away. The fear I suddenly got after being raped my senior year. I was always so fearless, I would do anything...I would sing in front of thousands if someone let me, I was moving to New York to pursue my dreams of singing and acting...It all slipped away after a date rape. I lost the one thing that was so important to my being...my fearlessness. So now at 36 years old, I still fear the stage trying desperately to get over it. My own personal battle, my own bad self-esteem...
The one thing I have gained through the years though is being able to be strong and speak my mind. I used to hide my feelings and just try to please everyone but somewhere along the way, I believe motherhood and womanhood came and I changed. So Wednesday is hump day and I'm actually looking forward to the weekend and being outside all day everyday. The weather should be letting up by then. Maybe the clouds will lift from my being also and I can sing my songs with no stage fright...smiling.
We have been practicing singing for a competition we have coming up in about two weeks and I have been trying to build my confidence more. I think I sing pretty good, it's just I have terrible stage fright so then I mess up or shake and it sounds bad. I keep visualizing a huge crowd in front of me because, to be honest it will be a huge crowd...Makes me slightly sick to my stomach. So, I'm trying to really be positive and hold my head high and act like I am this great thing and I sit at the end of practicing thinking the very opposite...I have two weeks to really perfect this and not take it so seriously. I mean this will be in front of brokers and their wives, half of which probably have no musical talent so we will sound like Gods to them...laughing!
I also pray everyday to make this fear go away. The fear I suddenly got after being raped my senior year. I was always so fearless, I would do anything...I would sing in front of thousands if someone let me, I was moving to New York to pursue my dreams of singing and acting...It all slipped away after a date rape. I lost the one thing that was so important to my being...my fearlessness. So now at 36 years old, I still fear the stage trying desperately to get over it. My own personal battle, my own bad self-esteem...
The one thing I have gained through the years though is being able to be strong and speak my mind. I used to hide my feelings and just try to please everyone but somewhere along the way, I believe motherhood and womanhood came and I changed. So Wednesday is hump day and I'm actually looking forward to the weekend and being outside all day everyday. The weather should be letting up by then. Maybe the clouds will lift from my being also and I can sing my songs with no stage fright...smiling.
Monday, June 4, 2007
Rainy Mondays and Stuff
Rainy Mondays always make me tired....sighs...All I want to do is read and sit around and be lazy today but with two kids that is impossible...Life couldn't be much better actually..I have two great kids, a wonderful husband, a roof over my head and lots of love. What more could I possibly want right? Well, the fact that my blog name is babyjellybelly should tell you something...laughing!
Yes, the biggest pouch you ever saw sits on my gut from my two beautiful children...smiling big! I'm slowly working into having the unbelievable will power and drive, my sister-in-law has, to exercise my brains out. She is amazing and inspiring truly. I guess my approach is a little slower because honestly, I am eating up every second of my youngest child being a baby since I won't be having anymore and that makes life pretty much stop...
I enjoy our moments sitting on the floor or a blanket outside watching her big brother and in the end I'm not getting much exercise but I'm able to write in her journal all the wonderful small memories we are already creating. So life has taken me to a little bit slower pace at this time but what a joy watching and playing with my kids is everyday. I figure if the weight has to slowly come off for now, that is fine. What if I'm not here in a week, what would I want the last thing I had done to be? Sitting with my kids and playing.
So as envious as I can get about others exercise and weight loss, maybe someone somewhere is envious of me and the time I spend with my children. My day will come where I can focus on me but as of now, it is my children because they grow so fast too quickly and I don't want to miss a thing. Just yesterday, I sat with my 7 month old and she was so involved in a book and I layed on the floor watching every move she made and watched her little brain spinning, her hands feeling every little inch of that book and her eyes amazed at the colors and patterns. That is my life right now. Last night, I listened to my 3 year old read me a book and what joy I have in knowing he is going to do so well this Fall when he starts preschool. Oh, how emotional I can also get on rainy Mondays. Smiling.
Yes, the biggest pouch you ever saw sits on my gut from my two beautiful children...smiling big! I'm slowly working into having the unbelievable will power and drive, my sister-in-law has, to exercise my brains out. She is amazing and inspiring truly. I guess my approach is a little slower because honestly, I am eating up every second of my youngest child being a baby since I won't be having anymore and that makes life pretty much stop...
I enjoy our moments sitting on the floor or a blanket outside watching her big brother and in the end I'm not getting much exercise but I'm able to write in her journal all the wonderful small memories we are already creating. So life has taken me to a little bit slower pace at this time but what a joy watching and playing with my kids is everyday. I figure if the weight has to slowly come off for now, that is fine. What if I'm not here in a week, what would I want the last thing I had done to be? Sitting with my kids and playing.
So as envious as I can get about others exercise and weight loss, maybe someone somewhere is envious of me and the time I spend with my children. My day will come where I can focus on me but as of now, it is my children because they grow so fast too quickly and I don't want to miss a thing. Just yesterday, I sat with my 7 month old and she was so involved in a book and I layed on the floor watching every move she made and watched her little brain spinning, her hands feeling every little inch of that book and her eyes amazed at the colors and patterns. That is my life right now. Last night, I listened to my 3 year old read me a book and what joy I have in knowing he is going to do so well this Fall when he starts preschool. Oh, how emotional I can also get on rainy Mondays. Smiling.
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